Wild at Heart

"I am looking for my Heart."

This is what the book Wild at Heart is about how we as men in this modern world have forgotten how to be men and how it is killing us. When I read this week I am reminded of how my heart is wasting away in the smooth even, controlled, neat, clean, safe and secure life that I live. When I think of all the things my heart longs to do, it makes me want to cry and all that I have not done and desperate to not miss any more opportunities.

I want to explore the out doors, hike for days, scale mountains, ford rivers, survive off the land. I want to go on road trips; I want to dance until I can no longer stand.

I want to be dangerous. I do not want to be known as a nice guys I want to be known as a dangerous man. as a man who when there is something crazy to be done I am the one who will never day no. my heart cries out to live the life that Jesus gave me to the fullest but my mind tells me to be safe to not take the risk, to not going camping this weekend because I have to study, to not get out and go dancing because I will make a fool of myself and be hurt my rejection. My mind tells me it is better to stay where it is safe and I know I have control than to step out into the unknown. BUT I WANT TO LIVE IN THE UNKNOWN!!!!

I have spent the last 10 years of my life in the known, but more like 22 years in the known and I am tired of the safe and secure, of the predictable and controlled. My heart longs to be one with God's heart and is searching after him and it was made by him God wants me to live as I was created to. I cannot control anything so why do I even pretend to try. Jesus did not live life in the safe lane nor did his disciples, who goes into a town where you know your message is hated and starts to preach, then when warned to leave you do not so you get wiped and stoned.

God designed us to be adventurous to be lost in His heart and to follow where It leads us no matter how unsafe it looks. But we have to practice…..hiking anyone?