I am so tired…I have been getting sleep this week and last week but I a tired. i have been at this school for almost 4 years, I have been pushing with everything that I have in my for 4 years. I am tired. this week it is all hitting me and I can barely stand.
it is discouraging to listen to people who just walked into West Point and not truly appreciate the gift that they have or do not do work here and blow off grades and work and leader development. I can honestly say I want to break them more often than not (that is being very polity).
For the past 4 years I have pushed with everything that is in me. I have never given up an inch of ground I have worked my classes like crazy, I have squeezed the most out of my leadership positions.
Over all I have gone from class rank plebe year mid 600, yuk year mid 500, cow year
Academic Program | Military Program Score | Physical Program | Cadet Performance (overall) | ||||
Score (APSC) | Rank in class (APR) | Score (MPSC) | Rank in class (MPR) | Score (PPSC) | Rank in class (PPR) | Score (CPS) | Rank in class (CPR) |
2.972 | 510 | 3.331 | 380 | 3.128 | 267 | 2.963 | 404 |
to where I am now
Academic Program | Military Program Score | Physical Program | Cadet Performance (overall) | ||||
Score (APSC) | Rank in class (APR) | Score (MPSC) | Rank in class (MPR) | Score (PPSC) | Rank in class (PPR) | Score (CPS) | Rank in class (CPR) |
3.148 | 425 | 3.636 | 171 | 3.391 | 107 | 3.131 | 246 |
(these scores as of start of firstie year)
I am not posting this to brag but I am posting more for myself to see what it is that I have accomplished to know that I have not run in vain.
I want to be able to stand on that stage in 44 days and know without a shadow of a doubt that I did my absolute and unfettered best and I left nothing on the table. when I cross the finish line in a race I what to know what I have nothing left if I know I have something less than I did not do my best.
When I see people who are costing by and not giving it their all it is so discouraging and infuriating to me because they are not doing their best and sometimes they make fun of me for doing my best and working so hard.
I believe my soldiers deserve my best and they deserve for me to be the best officer I can be without a question or doubt so that is what I am working to give them.
I am at the end of the race and I do not know what I have left. I can barely work anymore. I want to give up. I want to stop and rest. I want to know I made a difference. But there are 10 meters left and I have to pick up my knees, pump my arms and truck forward because it is in the last 10 meters of a race that you have to sprint with all that is in you because you have nothing left and you want to quite but you cannot, you will not.
RUN THROUGH THE TAPE, FINISH THE RACE MARKED OUT FOR YOU WITH ALL THAT YOU HAVE AND WHEN YOU HAVE RUN THROUGH THAT TAPE AND HAVE COLLAPSED REMEMBER THAT YOU GAVE IT YOUR ALL!!!!!
ALL IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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