out reach - take up your cross

telling some one about Jesus is easy, what is hard is taking up your cross ever day and loving those around you, those you live with, it is hard to live day in and say out as a man of chirst.

yes it is a good thing to tell people about Jesus and to pursie men and women for the kingdom. but if you do not daily take up your cross and love those around you and live each day as Christ would have your work advancing the kingdom is like spitting in the wind.

without the live the action is nothing. Jesus actions of sharing with people would have been nothing if he had not love those around him and had not every day lived a blameless life.

i know of to many people who have focused on their ministry and have gone nowhere because they ahve destroyed their life or the lives of their families. people who spent their lives in ministry and their children turned their back on God or commited suicide or ran to drugs and alcohal. what went wrong? they lost sight of the whole picture. they did not live each day picking up their cross and loving their family and loving their wives and loving their children.

the greatest commandment is to love the lord your God with all your heart, mind and soul. the second is to love your neighbor as yourself.

the purpose of hte christian life is to love Jesus with all wo who we are. it is to trive to be like him in always. the first goal of a christian is to pursuie a relationship with Jesus Christ with all of who we are. the second purpose of the christian life is loving our neighbor it is the great commission. it is because we love Jesus so much and are growing to be more like him. we then know how to love our neighbors and to bring people into the kingdom. we are overflowing with love for Jesus and excitment in the life that we have found in him that our cup is full and we have to share that live and love with those around us.

we have to start by picking up our cross everyday, day in and day out. that is what is hard, really really hard.

we as christians have to keep the first things first and make sure we are running after the right things. there is so much i could write about this i have spent the last couple of years thinking about his and hte past 3 months actively wrestling over this and engaging in discussion and debate, but i have to stop now. if you have questions please ask, comment, email (forfreedomifight2011@gmail.com) or call 951 440 4293.
Jesus i pray that you will help us to pursue you will all of who we are. to focus on you and everything else will follow.

Living with Guys

I will be down here at Fort Benning for about a year. I am living in a Navigator house it is a great expereince. because in this time i am not only surrouneded by great men and great christians but i am learning how to deal with conflicts and with issues that arrise in the house. i just moved out of my house and into another house because there is a dog in the house i was living in. it was me or her.

i have learned in a house with men or with any one is that you have to have rules and you have to have strong leadership to follow through on the rules and if necessary you need to enforce the rules and if some one is not following them. they have chosen to not live in the house and they need to leave. this is not mean or cruel it is real love. we as christians can not be door mat and allow people to walk over us.

Jesus loved people but he did not coddle them he love then in the way htey needed love. i am learning what it means to have tough love for those around me.

step back up to the plate

you know when you feel that God points out his plan for you and as you move towards it the door gets shut in your face? Well that happend to me and i am not sure what to do about it. when hte door was shut i was content to say ok i thought that was right but now it is shut so that is it. but i keep asking God to answer this question in my life and all i can think about is the door that was shut. it is all i can do to throw my heart into the purpuit of other things. i want to go back and try for round two.

i keep praying and i keep going back to where i was. may be that is the way it is supposed to be but the time is not right. i need more time wondering in the wilderness to learn and grow into who God intended me to be.

well i hope God makes up His mind soon or he speeds up my growth even though that will hurt a lot but i want to know. the constant cry of my heart is to know what he wants for me. i see it every where and am constantly reminded of this cry!!!

should i step back up to the plate and if so when is the right time? i guess that is the dance of hte holy spirit. i need to stay in step with him and when it is the right time i will know, without a shadow of a doubt that this is what God wants for me.

"Please God what ever you are working on in my life please bring it to a conclussion and move me back up to the plate!!!!!!!!!"

Long time to talk/write/anything

So i am still here at Fort Benning snow birding.

i actualy have nothing to write tonight. i just wanted to get on here and update put something up here. one of my roomates just turned 26 on tuesday and we are going to celebrate his brithday tomorrow night. i have been trying to get our house in order for that party but it is hard when i as 25% of the house am the only one who is trying to get it ready and the other 50% is doing nothing the other 25% wants to help but has a real job unlike the other 50%.

i have to practice self restraint every day to keep from hurting anyone when they push my buttons i have tried to show love to them. even though i do not feel any love what so ever towards them. we have house chores and mine is not sweeping the common areas but i did it again today because my roommate can not seem to find the broom which is right in front of him.

i really do not have anything nice to say so i am going to stop here. this was not a good blog so i am going to stop now.

i am sorry to all how read this.
joey